Dem Crazies

You know those friends you have that you can fart around and only feel minorly judged, laugh until your non existent abs hurt, and then have a deep night conversation about how you've never gotten over the fact that your ex cheated on you and broke your heart? I maybe 6 of those (mostly because I'm chatty and people like my insanity... I guess,) two of them I would do anything for.

Imagine having to face the inevitability of losing them. Not emotionally, you can always talk to them over skype or a social network site, but you wont be around them for a long period of time. At my age (the not so sweet hormone filled 16,) it feels like you're a balloon floating through the air towards the stratosphere towards your inevitable doom of popping. I'm not saying I'm an airhead (you can decide for yourself whether I am or not,) but my friends are the string holding me to the ground. I love my family, but unlike my family my friends are the people I choose to love. And I have to leave them soon. Being a touchy person doesn't help either. 

I wouldn't tell them any of this because I've alwaysbeen the strong one (i know thats so hard to believe but JUST BARE WITH ME.) But damn, it's gonna be hard. I know i will make more friends, its just I still want my old friends too. I don't want this to break us apart even if our relationship changes. Wouldn't you feel the same?